It’s funny how when I am going through a rough patch I am sure it’s going to last forever. I know in my head that it won’t last forever, but my heart and my body feel stuck and trapped. I was in that place last Sunday and by Monday morning, I was a completely different human. Fascinating how that happens. I give dancing all the credit. Last Sunday I wrote about repressed memories that have been resurfacing for me and all the ways I was going to let them go. And I did none of those things. No writing. No burning. But, I did do a lot of dancing and that made all the difference in the world. I got a tattoo in January that says “Learn.” Learn is my “mantra” word for 2018 and let me tell ya…….I have learned SOOOOOO MUCH. I joked when I got the tattoo that it was the short form of “what the fuck am I supposed to learn from this?” I think the lesson for me in 2017, is that there’s really nothing I can’t handle. Every time new pieces of my past have been revealed to me this year, I have came back to that tattoo and just thought Wow. I am really learning. I look at that tattoo and giggle. Not unlike that time I got “Calm” tattooed on my wrist and the Universe gave me Opportunities to practice being calm. Maybe my tattoos are like a vision board. On my skin. I saw my energy healing, shaman, witch/healer this week and she told me that I was a warrior in a past life. 7,000 years ago. She also told me that I have carried that energy over through lifetimes upon lifetimes. How cool is that? I left there feeling incredibly empowered. Now, Every time my husband asks me to do something I don’t want to do, I just remind him that I am tired from being a warrior for 7,000 years. That’s the greatest information ever! And it brings me right back to “There’s nothing I can’t handle.” And all that shit I wrote about last week doesn’t even seem like a big deal today. Today I want to write about some awesomeness. I made a vision board a few months ago. I’m bad about making vision boards and then sticking them in a closet. A vision board is supposed to be out where it can be seen. I made the vision board with a friend. It was more about introducing the concept to her than it was to actually creating my own vision. BUT, as I pulled that vision board out of the closet and inspected it, I see that almost everything on the board is coming into my life already. On this board I am playing more. I am connected to my inner child. She is hiking in the woods. She is dancing. On this board I am leading a retreat. A large retreat and I am positive I am leading people in dance at this retreat.
Now, here’s the “super secret” that I haven’t publicly announced. Two of my Kirtan singing friends have asked me to co-lead a retreat with them in the spring of 2019. The retreat will be in June at the Art of Living Retreat Center in Boone, NC and I couldn’t be more excited. We will hike, we will sing, we will dance, and we will yoga! When I say I am connected and Divinely guided (and I say that a lot), I truly believe that. I am in this flow of attracting all the amazing things into my life. I am in alignment with my divine assignment and I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing. The official announcement will come soon, and I hope I’m “allowed” to talk about it now because I am. 😊 Leading retreats is one of my favorite things to do. I am a dreamer and a planner. I love the play factor involved in planning. I took a step back from it in 2018 because I wanted to use that time to learn. I will never stop learning. It’s time to lead again.